The Countdown. Day 6

I am a little late on this post. Spent day six of this trying to keep my mind occupied. Which, while mostly successful, it is impossible to do completely. Every time a muscle would tense, a joint ache, or I was heading to the bathroom yet again I had to wonder how bad everything going on in my body is. Will it get worse? Will I ever feel "normal"? The uncertainty is a million times more draining than the pain and discomfort I physically feel. Five more days till I learn anything new. I don't think it would be as bad if I didn't know the possible diagnoses. But I do. And I have researched them every spare second I have had. I have even stopped playing my game (which for anyone who knows me personally should explain how preoccupied this all has me) simply to try and learn more. I am scared, I never planned to be in this position again but yet, here I am. Waiting on more tests to find a diagnosis to find an appropriate course of action. But through all this I am still the one who feels the aches, pains, and knows my body better than a lab...and I for once have no doubts as to what is to come.